30th August
7:37AM

I have Just Blocked Aga from FB.



31st August
12:08AM

The Last email from aga
"Mojo where have u been hiding lately? did u remove ur fb profile?"




1st September
12:17AM

I received the first sms from aga's side since I broke all ties with her.
the sms said
"Mojo how have u been doing?and where's ur fb profile?!C'mon u won't hide from me i'll have a new flatmate soon and i've got a huge headache 2day.Hugs"



3rd September
9:26PM

The last sms from her was
"Affam r u ok??Dont have any msg from u "

27 August 2010
4:50 AM


Okay just right now I have blocked Agusik and deleted her from my skype account, before this I was experimenting with my newer nicks on mirc.

I have just successfully registered the nick `Mandark too... from now on I plan not to use the older nick `Mojo_JoJo anymore.

I been thinking alot recently and i have to conclusion that I just break all ties with Agusik. I should move on too, why should I dewell in memories of the past - when future has no meaning for them.

Next thing I plan to do is block Agusik from facebook... I will do in sometime ... but I think I would do that.....

Just watching her online at odd times like just right now ... makes me miss her ... but what significance my emotions have in real life. Time passes by, world moves on ... so why shouldnt I move on with it too?

25 August 2010

Hey agusik got online again after 4AM here meaing she got online at 1AM there.
She never used to hangout online that late...just figured out the time difference between Turkey and Poland is of 1 hour, so I guess she can take out time for her activites.

Other than this sheikh sahib yesterday visited after receiving his visa for uk and he stayed here for iftari, after which I went with him to savor for dinner - though he didnt eat anything... but I had my meal !

Other than this Yesterday I got offer for accomodation at lakeside which is kinda expensive. I have to makeup my mind, if I want to avail this accomodation or not till 30th august... thats the deadline for acceptance of accomodation.

Other than this I bought last afternoon a new Jean for me.... Yes a Jean, its been sometime since I wore a Jean. I can easily be said that I havent tried a Jean for past more than 10 years....Well I just bought it by chance.

Shahab had to buy Jeans for himself so we went to chenone and there I asked the dude If they have Jean of my waste and the reply was positive...lol .... so thats how I bought the Jean.... though Im outa money for now....

Lets hope to get some cash from some source.

23rd August
5:57AM

Yesterday I went to farhans place for aftari and payment of ticket and reached there around at 6:30PM, just made it there in time for iftari. it was really nice to visit him for the first time at his place in scheme3. after having aftari and a bit of chitchat we went to saddar bazar and bought some samosas and 2 books from old book bank.Next time I wish when I visit him, I be in the passengers seat rather than in drivers seat. It alot more fun that way!

The major cause of me undertaking this trip without much of prior planning was that I been watching too much national geographic adventure channel and I basically was seeking adventure and to some extend yes I really enjoyed this trip to scheme3.

Later that night agusik showed up at sometime after 12:00Am and she left at around 4:00Am and all that time she was online, her status was set to away. I know she doesnt likes to keep her computer on when shes not using it. So I am very sure she was busy online with her friends.

Last night I determined whats wrong with me in this matter. Actually its like this that for past so many years like 6 years - when ever i saw agusik online on irc - we used to talk - it was like if shes online then it means we are talking - so now when i get to see her online and shes not talking to me - it makes me somewhat sad - u know sense of losing something.
She being online before was like she was there to talk to me only and when we were regularly talking to each other, I started to somewhat like her. Assuming that shes there for me may be because she also likes me. But surely not in the manner I liked her.

Well farhan gets his application pack today and would visit me as I instructed him. I had told him not open the pack till he reaches my place. So hope to meet him this afternoon too.

Just saw a movie named fourthkind was not much of a fun but helped me kill time so that I get bit sleepy and yes It has made my senses bit dull for the moment.

Not much of talking going around in the mains of channels I join on irc. So its kinda dull around... but hope to fall asleep soon and when I wake up I be not in this sad mood, as I always am in.

Few days back farhan pointed out a very interesting thing about ramadan this year. He said that this the golden ramadan of our lives. As we are free from university, nothing to doo, stay all day home, not employed yet and no near commitments in ramadan of any sort. After this ramadan we would be going for masters and most prolly into our professional lives and Ramadan would never be the same again.Infact this is our last ramadan of our lives thats marked by free days or holidays, after this we dont see any ramadan as relaxed as this one. I feel its very true of him.

22 August 1:32 AM

Okay last Thursday on 19th of August I applied for student Visa for UK. I went for it around 8:15AM and was in the line to enter the facility around 8:35AM. Man it was a tiring process it took me like more than 45 minutes in the line outside the facility and the time I came out of the facility was 5:45PM and it was raining at that moment.  

It was a very tiring event, first i had to get into the facility then get into a line to get a token after receiving that took had to wait for some time on 1st floor after which i had to wait again wait on other part of the hall to get my documents checked. After that I had to pay my fee for which there was line that was way to big and the process was too slow, I sat down for a while as my feet couldn't handle my weight anymore. Thanks to the dude in front of me who was helpful enough to allow me to sit and didn't mind when I came back into the line. After paying that fee to file visa I had to get another token number and the number I got on the token was 147 and at that moment the number that was being processed was 35 - now when can imagine how long i had to wait like many hours. I also slept for like half an hour and still the number reached somewhere around 65.  

After waiting for like alot, A guy came to me and handed me a number and said you can have it as he has two token issued to them, the token he gave me was 109 - I have no Idea why this man choose me out of whole crowd to help - but man it was a real blessing or I would have to wait for another 2 hours at least. Anyways that something that happened to me out of the blue! which really reduced the time of my stay at this facility. Now lets see when I get reply for the facility about my visa.

Later than night a very strange time I had a skype conversation with Agusik at around 11PM - agusik never showsup at that time - lol prolly she had no one to talk to and she turned to me to have a little chit chat... lol she likes to gossip around.... and she also told me about her new sister Anna I think was her name lol Well she also informed she was leaving for poznan to meet her father,sister and grandones there as his father intended to meet everyone there. later that night I send ther an sms telling dont mind it when I mess with her... and she replied to it too by saying she didnt mind it. well shes always nice to me and everyone I assume.

Today that is 22nd August, farhan as usual canceled his iftar party as usual and delayed it to Sunday which he informed me a day earlier on Friday and also told that his passport is back for collection at the facility, it took his case around 16 days to get processed. Let see what was the decision, I have asked him to come over my place when he gets the application pack and we will open it our place Umair a former class fellow of mine called me today and talked about my process but I didnt give out much information to him. His case took 14 days to get processed and got the positive response from them. At the moment its raining really very hard for a brief moment, but its has been raining light for sometime now. Agusik is on line now at the moment but her status is set to away, meaning she is really busy lol! I know I liked her more than a friend lol but people often dont get what is desire all the time - so same is the case here. So I went to KFC all that you can eat offer in F6 with bilal and saad, and have decided we would never go to all that you can eat offer again as its completely useless for health and monetary wise. then we had a brief stay at damnekoh and from down there saad had a nice cup of tea at jungle spot. After that I left for home after saad droped me back at F6 KFC where my car was parked and I left for adeel to have some tea and smokes at saeed cafe we stayed there for sometime. It was different weekend from my usual weekend as I usually stay at home.

4:03 AM
18 August

I had my first conversation with agusik tonight few hours ago like 5 hours ago to be precise.
lol - the most funny new story with her was that she has become a sister at the age of 23 lol....that something new and big i think!

Agusik had her web cam on - and first thing i saw her doing was picking her nose on the cam lol - that was real funny lol!!!

Man she looked very happy I mean she was kinda lively and laughing and being funny plus being friendly as usual with me.....

She didnt reply to my last message on FB - coz shes way too busy with her friends on skyp - though she only called me on skype as her friend and her boy friend in Istanbul didnt want to talk to her so she said to them i will talk to someone else and that was me.

LOL u know I felt like an extra in a film lol - she didnt talk for much and cut our conversation short as deniz wanted to talk to

her and was calling her and to talk to him she had to end her call connected to me lol.... see

Well I always feel better talking to her - and she looks to be real happy with her life too - So I wish she remains like that - though she had a strange change in her attitude as I mentioned before since she told me shes in relationship.

Other than this in the morning I have gathered all my documents relevant to UK visa application - except my ID card but I guess I will get it copied tomorrow. I got pictures got all things copied and put them in a file.

Tomorrow which is technically today around 10 AM I intend to visit PFL with final compilation of my visa application... hope its not a day thats requires me alot of sweating... its hot its Ramadan and i get thirsty lol....

So I wish myself all the luck for tomorrow and specially for 19th Aug when i file the visa... agusiks friend is also returning from Istanbul on 19th lol - the same friend who is with her bf there and for whom she didnt talk to me as a day ago as she was real busy talking to her !

What other new thing happened - well I bought 16 donuts for the price of 8 donuts that is i got 16 donuts for 480 Rupees
I think I might have new friend in making at irc an american dude! he looks calm person - but irc is full of very mentally disturbed peoples sometimes

Monday 16th August
2:31AM

Last Thursday agusik told me shes leaving for her home to meet her grand ones and give them the gifts she purchased from her turkey trip. and on Saturday sent a message of FB that she would be leaving for Warsaw at AM on Sunday and that was the only bus that day for her destination.

She did got back to Warsaw and showed up on skype but when i sent her a message she replied by saying that shes kinda busy so cant talk now....She is on line again...she doesnt like to switch on her computer when she has nothing to do on the computer...but her status is sent to away.... making me feel that she is ignoring me.... that makes even more sad

Original skype content with local time too 
[8/15/2010 7:45:07 PM] Affan: heyy
[8/15/2010 7:49:44 PM] aagusikk: Mojo i'm talkin 2 my polish friend who's comin back 2 POland next week
[8/15/2010 7:49:52 PM] aagusikk: i'm sorry can;t talk 2 u right now
[8/15/2010 8:04:14 PM] Affan: ok

But what the hell... i need to move on why I always keep on pulling meself back from where i need to move on.... lol I think i miss her! lol who cares - well atleast she doesnt - well shes happier with her new friends and partner.... so I should be happy for her too.

So when it comes to moving on I should discuss my mornings agenda. I have to collect my clearance cheque from University, then i have to visit pfl and ask about the documents I have to prepare so to be ready for applying a visa on 19th August. And also to contact shabs for a flight on 19th of September! lol
was born on 19th, agusik changed her status of fb on 19 july too though she got into relation in march ! Hey how would I have felt if I had known in march that shes in relationship. that was the time when prolly I was having my midterm exams for the last semester! I would have been soo stressed out till my final exams. but again who knows I might have come out of the sadness by now and also have graduated!

LOL - what if I was not able to concentrate at university and not graduated! WOW even the thought of not graduating at this time is soo scarey man!!! so I guess it turned out to be good for me that she changed her status on 19th of july lol noto exactly 19 but anytime after final exams tht was prolly 21st June lol

Why im being so touchy about the dates when different events take place? I guess thesedays i have nothing to do just think about different things - and only thing comes to my mind is agusik lol! Man I should be more focused about my Msc now and new things that might affect me in few months, should be concerned about getting a VISA though before it I should have been more concerned about admission.

I should know what are my prirorites in life - that would show me the path to move on with life!
Sticking to past is not beneficial to anyone - lol who is concered here other than me so it should be like this as dear chooza told me its a utter stupidness to stick to once past and not moving forward. Man i cant never forget this advice from chooza he really moved on with life too he had seen more hard times then me - Im being just too much emotional even though they are not required at the moment.

But why im all the time so low, do i enjoy being low or is my life is marked by low events ! nah i dont believe that im the cursed one! in fact im quite a lucky guy its just that there is something seriously wrong with my brain - Im way too sensitive and keep on thinking about past.

Oh Lord help me with my brain - give me strength to move on and not being an emotional fool that I am big time!!

10th August 2010
8:19 PM


Last night i feel asleep at 8PM as for the past 20+ hrs i had not slept - prolly due to the haphazard schedule I’m following.
but this morning when i woke up and checked my email around 5:30 AM, I had received an email from Aston business school, this is the good news i was waiting for since my graduation and by grace of God my another wish got fulfilled in a quick succession.
So in the morning at around 11:30 AM i called sheikh sahib and told him about my admission and asked him to come to Islamabad which he would have not done as he was just here at my place yesterday - but i guess he also liked the news that he made an effort to come and visit me again. LOL Though I’m expecting him again to come over tomorrow as that would be last gathering at tea spot before ramadan, I hope the weather isn’t rainy as it at the time when i was on my way to drop sheikh sahib at Karachi company.

So this afternoon i provided documents to PFL which would fullfill my conditions to secure an unconditional offer at Aston. I hope there are improvements on my case tomorrow as i have to apply for visa as soon as possible. As far as today’s email for accommodation is concerned - i got a reply from them and they said i need to accept the offer to apply for the accommodation for which im already late lets hope what happens next.

Other than this admission stuff - last night i replied to agusik on face book and as well sent her two sms asking her about some stuff about skype but she has not replied. Well she had never before delayed in replying but i guess everyone priorities in life change as soon as they get into relationship. i miss agusik more only after realizing that she gone, why don’t people care about the ones they love when they are near to them and why always we miss people when we realize that we have lost them. thats true i cant overcome the fact she is ignoring me. That’s sad indeed.

well as sheikh sahib had discussed before that i need a real change in life to overcome my anxiety - and i believe that too that i need a change radical one and a life that is very busy that i don’t have time to think about agusik, i need to be happy about me graduating and getting admission to Aston which i really wanted to come true and they did. all the time when i was attending university I was counting my days to graduation and now when i have graduated i feel that i should have talked more to agusik and also had her companionship. But i guess we sometime overlook things - lose some gain some! but no one gets everything they desire - sometime we get some times we lose - but i don’t know why im so much feeling depressed of my loss and why cant i lift my feelings based on my graduation ( i been waiting for it for a very long time ) and my admission at Aston. I mean it wasn’t easy getting admission at Aston like i prolly have been the last acceptance of Aston for the applied course. I should be happy that i made it to the handful of applicants!

I guess im happy about it - but i feel that im thinking to much about agusik that eclipses my happines. I wonder why i started feeling so intensely about her now - why want i thik about her before when there was time. Why we start missing people when we lose them and never care about them when we have them. Oh lord please make me show my feeling towards people i really want to be with people who care before I lose them.

I guess I’m to much stuck with my own Ego!

I had a chance to talk to agusik on her 23rd birthday via skype for the first time after her status set to in relationship.
Talking to agusik make me feel that she is a changed person and indeed she is lol - i mean her attitude towards me - she is more cautious about what she says to me - when she mentioned about her privacy i was bit shocked - is she the same agusik who was when 17 used to tell me why she fainted on day due to periods ! she used to be soo open before she behaves in a manner that i dont feel bad or stuff i mean just to keep on old friendships.
She is more aggresive now like ready to retaliate to any comment that she finds offending before she always laughed away what ever i said - i miss my old agusik

I guess its time for me to move on tooo as she did and others did - its not a good idea to keep myself tied to the past - past not gonna help me in future only would keep me from rising in future.

But I miss her Just too much - i should realize that, she wouldnt have been as happier as she is now - i couldnt have given her what she likes - may be this due is the right choice I wish she is happy. But talk really lifted my mood and even got her sms after a long time after this which was the first on this blackberry of mines from her side. Thats true she send me her last email in december 2009 - i should have guessed that she is busy with something else in her life. I have greater expectations of her but she didnt have any from me lol!


[3:29:53 AM] aagusikk: Mojo yeap that's me - Agusik
[3:29:53 AM] Affan: Affan has shared contact details with aagusikk.
[3:30:04 AM] Affan: Aguuuussiiikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
[3:30:05 AM] Affan:
[3:30:09 AM] Affan: new place to talk to
[3:30:18 AM] aagusikk: yeap
[3:30:23 AM] aagusikk: wait a min ok?
[3:30:29 AM] Affan: soooo
[3:30:30 AM] aagusikk: i will just write my friend back
[3:30:31 AM] Affan: what were u doing?
[3:30:38 AM] aagusikk: wait pls
[3:30:44 AM] Affan: sure sure i have all the time in the world to wait for ur explanitions
[3:31:01 AM] aagusikk: and u think u gonna get any
[3:31:23 AM] Affan: why u not going to tell me everything?
[3:31:55 AM] Affan: ??????????????????????????
[3:32:25 AM] aagusikk: EVERYTHING
[3:32:33 AM] aagusikk: u know i like my privacy
[3:32:58 AM] Affan: sure sure - i know u gonna be differnt now
[3:33:02 AM] Affan: i accept that.
[3:33:09 AM] aagusikk: different now
[3:33:16 AM] aagusikk: i've never been any different
[3:33:17 AM] aagusikk:
[3:33:32 AM] Affan: yup differnt everyone disappears once they get into relationship
[3:33:34 AM] aagusikk: i liked and i do like and i gonna like my private cases
[3:33:52 AM] Affan: never ever u mentioned anything about ur privacy in past 6 years
[3:33:53 AM] aagusikk: depends on what u gonna agree to change
[3:34:08 AM] Affan: i have known u when u were 17 and now u telling me now stuff
[3:34:15 AM] Affan: way too go agusik way too gooo!!!
[3:34:17 AM] aagusikk: i didn't have to coz i knew what things i might share and which should b my own business
[3:34:28 AM] aagusikk: hahahaha
[3:34:39 AM] aagusikk: damn it's been 6 years already ?
[3:34:57 AM] Affan: wow agusik never heard from u in that tone
[3:35:14 AM] Affan: well things change people move on !!! and u did too
[3:35:26 AM] Affan: well just tell me what u want to dont tell everything
[3:35:40 AM] Affan: this law studies are getting to ur head believe me u sound just like a lawyer now
[3:35:42 AM] aagusikk: oh thnk u 4 giving me such an option
[3:35:47 AM] Affan: stupid honest lawyer to be exact
[3:36:04 AM] aagusikk: that's that drawback i won't probably get rid of
[3:36:15 AM] Affan: thats sad
[3:36:24 AM] Affan: but cant help repairig
[3:36:32 AM] aagusikk: well but i like bein honest, hate lies
[3:36:38 AM] Affan: lol
[3:36:40 AM] aagusikk: pity
[3:36:48 AM] Affan: u sound so differnt agusikkkkk so different
[3:36:51 AM] aagusikk: in this case i have to find another job 4 me
[3:36:57 AM] aagusikk: so different ?
[3:37:07 AM] aagusikk: in what sense?
[3:37:12 AM] Affan: anyways - i gonna register ur nick on mirc so no one can use it again - do u mind that ?
[3:37:21 AM] Affan: u just sound too rude
[3:37:35 AM] Affan: u were always soo sweet and calm
[3:37:41 AM] aagusikk: oh sure i don't mind that
[3:37:46 AM] Affan: goooooood
[3:37:46 AM] aagusikk: too rude
[3:37:52 AM] aagusikk: coz i tell what i think
[3:37:56 AM] aagusikk:
[3:38:00 AM] Affan: so u were going to tell me ur long story or not ?
[3:38:09 AM] aagusikk: it's better than tellin lies i guess
[3:38:34 AM] Affan: strange agusik - why are u saying again and again that about lies and stuff... it scares me
[3:38:43 AM] aagusikk: hey i may be still calm and cute it all about th issue we gonna discuss here
[3:38:47 AM] Affan: i never expected u to lie
[3:38:59 AM] aagusikk: coz i won't lie to u for sure
[3:39:07 AM] Affan: is it thorny topic to discuss?
[3:39:27 AM] aagusikk: not really so don't expect some juicy details
[3:39:35 AM] Affan: juicyyyyyy
[3:39:39 AM] Affan: aguuuuussiiiikkkkkkk
[3:39:53 AM] Affan: so it has juicy stuff in it
[3:40:06 AM] Affan: damn u simply damn u on ur birthday
[3:40:10 AM] aagusikk: Mojo do u really read what i write there
[3:40:29 AM] Affan: im too excited may be im missing some poitns
[3:40:40 AM] aagusikk: sure thing
[3:40:53 AM] aagusikk: hahaha that was real funny
[3:41:07 AM] Affan: i dont know what to ask u for in who story
[3:41:17 AM] Affan: whole
[3:41:21 AM] aagusikk: hum
[3:41:36 AM] aagusikk: so perhaps lets start from the beginning how bout that
[3:41:43 AM] Affan: ok me is listining
[3:41:49 AM] aagusikk: no questions?
[3:41:54 AM] aagusikk: unlike u Mojo
[3:42:18 AM] Affan: please start will ask questions at the end if they are not very urgent to as between ur lecture teacher
[3:43:02 AM] aagusikk: hihihihiihihi
[3:43:03 AM] aagusikk: ok
[3:43:09 AM] aagusikk: well
[3:43:25 AM] aagusikk: we've been in touch with this guy like 3,5 year
[3:44:09 AM] aagusikk: first it was kinda innocent coz we were like fine friends
[3:44:31 AM] aagusikk: we called each other, emailed each other, texted and so on
[3:45:26 AM] aagusikk: but u may imagine urself that when th contact becomes intense lets some feelings may, not necessarily but still, appear
[3:46:02 AM] aagusikk: we met in person for th first time in September last year when i visited this beautiful city of Istanbul for the first time too
[3:47:00 AM] Affan: how did u get in touch with the dude intially?? is he polish or turk?
[3:47:22 AM] Affan: and when u met him first time u only sent me the pictures so sad agusik
[3:47:24 AM] aagusikk: nah he's turkish
[3:47:38 AM] aagusikk: initially
[3:48:00 AM] aagusikk: we started talkin through a programm that alows dowloading music etc
[3:48:07 AM] aagusikk: it is called imesh
[3:48:12 AM] Affan: i know about imesh
[3:48:35 AM] aagusikk: yeap at that time i was usin it to download music
[3:48:41 AM] Affan: u used to get viruses in ur computer from it i remeber that too
[3:49:06 AM] aagusikk: i did
[3:49:10 AM] aagusikk: might be
[3:49:13 AM] Affan: but im still confused u never told me about it
[3:49:16 AM] aagusikk: aaaaaaaaaaaa right
[3:49:44 AM] aagusikk: coz i didn't know that one day it gonna turn into something more advanced
[3:49:53 AM] Affan: lol thats very true
[3:50:01 AM] aagusikk:
[3:50:23 AM] aagusikk: c'mon Mojo i might b naive a bit, still honest etc
[3:51:06 AM] aagusikk: i didn't want 2 fall in love with somebody from a different country coz i was sooooooooo aware of difficulties that may arrise
[3:51:08 AM] aagusikk: ..........
[3:51:23 AM] Affan: lol ur smart then u lost control over ur heart like in movies
[3:51:50 AM] aagusikk: mmmm more or less
[3:52:00 AM] aagusikk: but one thing is
[3:52:03 AM] Affan: what does he do? he studies or works ?
[3:52:04 AM] aagusikk: important
[3:52:06 AM] Affan: yes
[3:52:15 AM] aagusikk: i didn't lost control without knowing it
[3:52:43 AM] aagusikk: i guess that somewhere inside i agreed on loosin it coz th feeling was, is and probably gonna be very strong
[3:52:52 AM] aagusikk: loose
[3:52:54 AM] aagusikk: *
[3:53:09 AM] Affan: thats totally natural i guess.....
[3:53:20 AM] Affan: so he still ives in turkey?
[3:53:31 AM] aagusikk: uhum....
[3:53:38 AM] aagusikk: that sucks
[3:53:57 AM] Affan: why?
[3:54:12 AM] aagusikk: he's a student of mechanical engineering.
[3:54:16 AM] Affan: WOW
[3:54:22 AM] aagusikk:
[3:54:27 AM] Affan: cool hunt agusik
[3:54:41 AM] aagusikk: so we have to graduate from th univs
[3:54:47 AM] aagusikk: hahahaha well i think so too
[3:55:07 AM] Affan: so u intend to move to turkey - i remeber u always praising turkey
[3:56:13 AM] aagusikk: as a matter of fact
[3:56:18 AM] aagusikk: in those circumstances
[3:56:30 AM] aagusikk: i really would like to live there and work there
[3:56:53 AM] aagusikk: funny but the first thing i thought of after gettin off the plane was - damn Warsaw is sooooo ugly
[3:57:04 AM] Affan: lol
[3:57:16 AM] Affan: but poland is ur home i guess its not easy letting it go or is it?
[3:57:36 AM] Affan: now i get it so thats why u went for turkish language classes again to turkey for them
[3:57:38 AM] aagusikk: for me
[3:57:44 AM] aagusikk: nahhh
[3:57:59 AM] aagusikk: that's the wrong impressiona dn ppl usually think this way
[3:58:36 AM] aagusikk: i registered for this language course coz i have been really fancy learning turkish just as a hobby and some kind of alternative for life
[3:58:51 AM] aagusikk: being with Deniz is just an additional impact
[3:59:07 AM] aagusikk: but there always be my willingness to learn this foreign language
[3:59:24 AM] Affan: that i know ur awlays too much intrested in foreign culture and stuff.
[3:59:44 AM] aagusikk: so far i've learnt many foreign languages and at the moment i'm sure I want to improve my Eng and have at least a good command of spanish and turkish
[3:59:59 AM] aagusikk: hah maybe but i like it
[4:00:06 AM] Affan: i know u came to chatworld to improve ur english too when i met u lol
[4:00:28 AM] Affan: so what are ur future plans now?
[4:01:20 AM] aagusikk: hahahah exactly
[4:01:36 AM] aagusikk: and i must tell u that thx 2 talkin 2 u i got better
[4:01:55 AM] aagusikk: i owe u an honest thank you friend
[4:01:57 AM] Affan: lol im just a student of language too
[4:02:21 AM] aagusikk: but u had and u have still far better command of this language
[4:02:26 AM] Affan: lol
[4:02:27 AM] aagusikk: future plans.....
[4:02:50 AM] aagusikk: i'd like to register for an internship in the general consulate of Poland in Istanbul
[4:02:56 AM] Affan:
[4:02:59 AM] aagusikk: it's doable coz i was there in July and asked bout it
[4:03:15 AM] aagusikk: as i voted there i had an opportunity to talk to those guys in person
[4:03:26 AM] Affan: ur heart is surely stuck in turkey now girl
[4:03:31 AM] aagusikk: and surely i'd like to take next level of language course
[4:03:40 AM] aagusikk: pretty much
[4:03:46 AM] Affan: thats nice ......
[4:03:58 AM] Affan: only this in ur story i found sad was i was kept in the dark about it ....
[4:04:03 AM] Affan: thing
[4:04:10 AM] aagusikk: mmm
[4:04:14 AM] aagusikk: we
[4:04:27 AM] aagusikk: decided to be a couple in March this year
[4:04:38 AM] Affan: ohh okay
[4:04:49 AM] aagusikk: until March we tried to treat each other as friends
[4:04:50 AM] Affan: 4 months of darkness
[4:04:55 AM] Affan: lol
[4:05:04 AM] aagusikk: hey please don't be mad or sth.........
[4:05:06 AM] Affan: well if u ask me - u stoped talking to me long ago.
[4:05:18 AM] Affan: so i know u got busy with life
[4:05:24 AM] Affan: but soo busy i never expected
[4:05:32 AM] aagusikk: heyyyy how many times i told u
[4:05:39 AM] aagusikk: it would b real nice to hear from u first
[4:05:58 AM] aagusikk: as a matter of fact at times i thought that u just do not want 2 talk 2 u
[4:06:06 AM] Affan: awwwwwwww
[4:06:11 AM] aagusikk: 2 talk 2 me *
[4:06:17 AM] Affan: lol - i thought i was distrubing u
[4:06:29 AM] aagusikk: ohhhhhhhh
[4:06:39 AM] aagusikk: u r a smart guy but sometimes u just talk rubbish
[4:06:43 AM] aagusikk: i'm sorry
[4:06:45 AM] Affan:
[4:06:55 AM] Affan: really - please tell me what didnt u like about me?
[4:07:06 AM] Affan: im really sorry if i said anything rude to u
[4:07:23 AM] aagusikk: that u disturbed me or sth
[4:07:31 AM] Affan: atleast utelling smething.....
[4:07:32 AM] Affan:
[4:07:40 AM] aagusikk: i thought i was explicit enought and let u know i would really like to b i touch
[4:07:52 AM] aagusikk: and in*
[4:08:11 AM] Affan: ohhhhhh saddddd ------ well agsuik i here make a solemn promise
[4:08:12 AM] aagusikk: i'm kinda used to the way we keep in touch here
[4:08:33 AM] aagusikk: u know Mojo - ppl text each other, drop a line somewhere
[4:08:36 AM] Affan: i will keep intouch with u - wthout regarding u in toilet or in grave
[4:08:37 AM] aagusikk: email each other
[4:08:54 AM] Affan: hey i called u a few times u never did
[4:09:00 AM] aagusikk: ohh i do not have any problem with talkin 2 sb on th phone when i'm in toilet
[4:09:14 AM] aagusikk: well in this case i promise to do that
[4:09:29 AM] Affan: Yah i totally understand u agusik - i myself is an introvet person - i rarely interact and ur complaints are genuin im sure about that.
[4:09:59 AM] aagusikk: i'm pretty aware of u being a kind of a lil taciturn
[4:10:10 AM] Affan: whats that taciturn?
[4:10:18 AM] aagusikk: but u know i sometimes need a sign that a person really is eager to contact with me.......
[4:10:29 AM] Affan: yes ur so right.....
[4:10:33 AM] aagusikk: hum this is a kind of a person who prefers to stay silent
[4:10:39 AM] Affan: i will call my every friend tomorrow
[4:10:55 AM] Affan: yah thats right i say silent and observe others so true.
[4:11:02 AM] aagusikk: i hope that my every friend involves me too
[4:11:12 AM] Affan: lol no wont call u it costs alot
[4:11:15 AM] Affan: u never called me
[4:11:19 AM] Affan: not even on my birthday
[4:11:23 AM] Affan: i called u on ur birthday once
[4:11:26 AM] Affan:
[4:11:47 AM] aagusikk: once P
[4:11:56 AM] Affan: i did call u from england too
[4:11:57 AM] aagusikk: so what about this promise
[4:12:02 AM] aagusikk: i remember
[4:12:09 AM] aagusikk: i was so proud back then
[4:12:12 AM] Affan: well i will try to change myself
[4:12:19 AM] Affan: already i dont have many friends.
[4:12:31 AM] Affan: and sometimes im too lonely in my room that i go back to mirc to find people to talk .
[4:12:40 AM] aagusikk: i don't get it - u r a great and smart guy
[4:12:59 AM] Affan: lol u prolly are the only person who things that
[4:13:00 AM] aagusikk: and how is it possible u don't have many friends
[4:13:20 AM] Affan: well u know it - i stay indoors - think all the time about myself what i like and what i expect from people
[4:13:25 AM] aagusikk: pfffff show me a person who does not and i gonna beat him/her up
[4:13:28 AM] Affan: not the other way roung which is more important i guess.
[4:13:39 AM] aagusikk: well, yes
[4:13:40 AM] Affan: lol that was sweet agusik
[4:14:12 AM] aagusikk: speakin of which - i have to go to the toilet, brb
[4:14:16 AM] Affan: lol
[4:14:18 AM] Affan: take ur time
[4:14:39 AM] aagusikk: hey don't call me coz i'm not takin my phone with me
[4:14:50 AM] Affan: lol
[4:14:51 AM] Affan: sure sure
[4:14:54 AM] Affan: ur funny
[4:17:48 AM] aagusikk: yeap, that's better
[4:17:58 AM] Affan: good good
[4:18:15 AM] Affan: when are u graduating then?
[4:18:25 AM] aagusikk: hopefully in a year time
[4:18:29 AM] Affan: good good
[4:18:33 AM] aagusikk: u know
[4:18:37 AM] Affan: what?
[4:18:56 AM] aagusikk: i was thinking of havin a go and tryin to apply for th univ in Istanbul
[4:19:10 AM] aagusikk: damn it's been always my dream - studyin abroad
[4:19:16 AM] Affan: lol
[4:19:22 AM] aagusikk: really
[4:19:26 AM] Affan: before u got admission in warsaw or transfering to istanbul?
[4:19:45 AM] aagusikk: b4 warsaw
[4:19:51 AM] Affan: lol
[4:20:03 AM] Affan: i think u didnt go to istanbul even before that?
[4:20:08 AM] aagusikk: but i didn't have enough courage i guess
[4:20:37 AM] Affan: u mean u just wanted to study in istanbul before gonig to warsaw, or due to the dude?
[4:20:43 AM] aagusikk: coz i've never been 2 Istanbul b4 1st year of my studies here
[4:20:44 AM] Affan: what was his name deniz
[4:20:47 AM] aagusikk: aaaaaaaaaa
[4:20:50 AM] aagusikk: no no no
[4:20:56 AM] aagusikk: i've always wanted to study abroad
[4:21:01 AM] aagusikk: no specific place
[4:21:01 AM] Affan: I see....
[4:21:16 AM] Affan: may be u get ur dream granted in future by working abroad
[4:21:22 AM] aagusikk: now, as th situation is kinda clearer
[4:21:35 AM] aagusikk: ohhhh i don't mind working abroad
[4:21:36 AM] aagusikk: really
[4:21:45 AM] aagusikk: if not univ i'd like to work there
[4:21:48 AM] Affan: well on ur birthday i wish for u that u get a good paying job with deniz in istanbul
[4:22:13 AM] aagusikk: ohhhhhhhhh those are th sweetest wishes thank u Mojo
[4:22:13 AM] Affan: hey i came across an indian dude on ur fb
[4:22:17 AM] Affan: u got indian friends too
[4:22:20 AM] aagusikk: i know
[4:22:25 AM] Affan: man thats like ur a traitor
[4:22:27 AM] aagusikk: u've already mentioned me bout that
[4:22:38 AM] Affan: no polish can have indian friends if they have a pakistani friend
[4:23:07 AM] Affan: did i lol
[4:23:10 AM] Affan: what did i say before
[4:23:12 AM] aagusikk: so what - do u want me to delete him from my friend's list
[4:23:18 AM] Affan: nooooo
[4:23:28 AM] aagusikk: that u noticed this guy sooner
[4:23:30 AM] Affan: its just we pakistani just dont find comfort around indians
[4:23:38 AM] aagusikk: i know
[4:23:41 AM] aagusikk: what's more
[4:23:42 AM] aagusikk:
[4:23:44 AM] Affan: but some pakitani doo too
[4:23:58 AM] aagusikk: i had an hindi guy
[4:24:05 AM] aagusikk: at my turkish classes
[4:24:07 AM] Affan: its just how broad ur mind is.
[4:24:24 AM] Affan: lol what was that damned creature doing there
[4:24:33 AM] aagusikk: dont know !
[4:24:42 AM] aagusikk: he is soooooooooo damn pretentious !
[4:24:49 AM] Affan: lol why what did he do?
[4:25:12 AM] aagusikk: we acted as if he had been better than everybody else in th class
[4:25:22 AM] Affan: lol arrogant bastard
[4:25:36 AM] aagusikk: and he was yawning out loud !!!!!
[4:25:49 AM] aagusikk: that was so irritating and rude, lets face it
[4:26:01 AM] Affan: i very glad u hate an indian
[4:26:12 AM] aagusikk: Selma, the teacher, looked at him only and didn't say a word but i gave him a several looks
[4:26:26 AM] Affan: our brave agusik
[4:26:38 AM] Affan: so agusik would i get to talk to u more often now ?
[4:26:51 AM] Affan: or ur busy - i felt u have alots of friends so ur always away and stuff?
[4:26:54 AM] aagusikk: i hope so !
[4:26:59 AM] aagusikk: nahhhh
[4:27:11 AM] aagusikk: i have only a few good friends that's all
[4:27:16 AM] Affan: lol
[4:27:18 AM] aagusikk: at times
[4:27:34 AM] aagusikk: i just read a book or i walk in the neighbouhood
[4:27:45 AM] aagusikk: i may even take a nap or do sth
[4:27:53 AM] aagusikk: it's not that i'm soooooo busy
[4:28:04 AM] aagusikk: u know i do not like havin my pc turned on all th time
[4:28:19 AM] Affan: i always had a feeling that u had a life and around around home much thats why i didnt mess with u much
[4:28:41 AM] aagusikk: hey and if u really want it or not i've been always missin talkin 2 u - that's a sincere confession
[4:29:11 AM] Affan: me too
[4:29:25 AM] aagusikk: believe me it's good to know that someone wants to talk to u
[4:29:29 AM] Affan: lol
[4:29:37 AM] aagusikk: and i hope we gonna talk often
[4:29:39 AM] aagusikk:
[4:29:42 AM] Affan: not aware of that feeling though
[4:30:13 AM] aagusikk: i like and need ppl perhaps that's why i'm tellin u that for ..... time
[4:30:30 AM] aagusikk: but know friend i'm goin 2 bed coz i have to get up in th morning and go on this intern
[4:30:37 AM] Affan: ooohh yesss
[4:30:45 AM] Affan: im sooo sorrryyy for taking so much time of urz
[4:30:51 AM] Affan: but i was so excited i had to talk to u....
[4:30:53 AM] aagusikk: pffff come on
[4:30:56 AM] aagusikk: i'm a big girl
[4:31:06 AM] Affan: though u told me a brief story but i guess im happy to hear
[4:31:06 AM] aagusikk: i can take care of myslef
[4:31:09 AM] Affan: but was late to hear
[4:31:13 AM] aagusikk: and i'm really glad we talked here
[4:31:27 AM] aagusikk: hahahah brief
[4:31:30 AM] aagusikk: hum sorta
[4:31:33 AM] Affan: lol
[4:31:41 AM] Affan: so take care agusik ....
[4:31:49 AM] Affan: and please enjoy ur daya
[4:31:52 AM] Affan: as its ur day
[4:32:22 AM] aagusikk: such small things really make me happy - and thanks 2 this convo i gonna have a great day
[4:32:30 AM] aagusikk: thx 4 th wishes
[4:32:33 AM] Affan: sure sure
[4:32:36 AM] Affan: good night
[4:32:37 AM] aagusikk: and hope to talk 2 u sooooonnnn
[4:32:42 AM] Affan: and u used to wish me on messages
[4:32:45 AM] aagusikk: good night Mojo
[4:32:47 AM] Affan: sweet dreams mojo
[4:32:56 AM] Affan: so sweet dreams agusik and have a blast tomorrow
[4:33:18 AM] Affan: BYeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
[4:34:02 AM] aagusikk: sweet dreams to u too and enjoy ur day
[4:34:14 AM] aagusikk: p.s.check ur cell
[4:34:17 AM] Affan: i like u alot too
[4:34:23 AM] Affan: i got the sms after a long time
[4:34:23 AM] aagusikk:
[4:34:32 AM] Affan: and believe me its ur first on my new phone
[4:34:42 AM] aagusikk: ohhhh u got a new phone !
[4:34:53 AM] aagusikk: take some pics of it and upload of fb
[4:34:55 AM] Affan: yup an old version of black berry
[4:35:02 AM] Affan: lol i dont wanna be a showoff
[4:35:05 AM] aagusikk: oh whatever
[4:35:09 AM] aagusikk: phhhh
[4:35:12 AM] aagusikk: sure sure
[4:35:46 AM] aagusikk: ok good night Mojo
[4:35:54 AM] aagusikk: c u l8er ta taaaaa
[4:35:57 AM] Affan: u too agusik best wishes again
[4:35:59 AM] Affan: taa taa
[4:36:04 AM] aagusikk: thx (:
[4:36:07 AM] aagusikk: bye

5th of August 2010
1:46 AM

I been a while since I last posted anything here.
The last post that i looked at was about friends leaving for England last year that was september 2009. And the Post before that was about my starting of 7th or the second last semester at university.

So its been almost a year i have posted anything - as i have now graduated that!!! which was really a great problem till my last post but now it seems this problem never existed. Im really happy about being graduated.

Many different things have happened in the past years which i missed posting here but i will try to post whats really happening thesedays with me and berief history of different other things during the last semester.

My BBA final exams compelted on 21st June 2010 and the result was announced on saturday 3rd july. So techinically i graduated on 3rd july till now i have only acquired my final transcript from the university - thing left is clearance of my from university as i would 6000 rs which every students pays at the time of admission as some sort of security money.

On 12th June i had applied for admission at Aston university for my masters in hrm and business and still wating for their decesion since then.

On 19th July Aga changed her status at FB which mentioned that she is not in relationship - I was bit sad about it but i dont know though there was no reason to be sad.

2 weeks before 19th july it had been exceptionally hot here but ironically it rained really heavy on 19th July night lol does it has to do anything with my sorrows lol dont know. everyone moves on with their life and i should too. I dont know why I am so resistant to change - why i always dewel in past.

Though i have graduated which was really a big deal for me for past few years - i have not been that happy as i had thought till 19th july i guess lol but why the problem is why i cant let go things easily may be it had to do something with my nature of being selfish and being a prisoner of my own desires. I hope i get outa it as i did from earlier case of gadget. Did i ever fully recovered from it. well i hav always noted this losing gadget answered a really important question of my life lol - and yes it was reinforced again on 19th og july.

But being optimistic atleast i have graduated which i deemed biggest hurdle between me and happiness before! so why am i not happy now which does the life keeps on going on in a loop or is it something wrong with me? I wish i become someone who has all the answers and content with the present state.

well its agas first birthday after she got into relationship - i had known here for past six years or more and thought her to be a close friend. But i think i miss her cute emails and sms and well wishes she seldoms used to send. shes so busy thesedays the last email i received from her side was on dec 2009 - she didnt even send a single email till yet. thought i made her join fb so i more frequently kept in touch with her but ..... lol funny life! Well i guess enought of this story coz things have changed and clinging on to it wont be any productive infact makes me think more about it.

What happened in 8th semseter? lol it was best semester of my bachelors we had a teacher who was a great person and taught us wto and studying form him in the last semester was like putting a full stop on a story that had a happy ending. the things that stressed me this semster was od subject and the cmgt thought i had worked hard in the mids things sometimes never work ones way and that waht really happened. od teacher didnt give good marks in mids thought they were average but had a feeling that she ight fail me the last semster just a fear though she gave me a B at the end and other teacher was just to inflexible with boys lol though i got good marks in mids interms of marks of other people, i had 21 that made me work for an A but things life had planned a B for me in this subject too. NO regrets as i have graduated which was more important for me than getting A's or B's lol and yes i had really screqed my presentaion of this same od subject which i had with new group in which i was a forced choice and nothing seemed working my way lol i didnt like the g.leader in the biggening and till the end even lol - but i guess i miss them all after getting my final transcript specially saeed and yasir who were real source of entertainment in the 8th semester that had 3 majors courses so alot of time was spent with them. good fellows indeed!

Now what am i looking forward at? it is the admission at aston really! sheikh sab told me i need to have substaintial change in life to get outa my depressed moood and i think aston can provide me that. since agas loss im too depressed! another thing that happened this semster was that after final exam of 8th semseter i went to KFC with 2 friends that night i had severe pain in my back which i think was a signal of an heartattack it was very uncomfortable it did subside after taking a pain killer but it kept haunting me for like a week - i had a feeling that in a day or do i would surely be visiting a doctor. reduced smoking substantially. but dont know these heart pains have subsided for now that i happy about - but the chance of having a heart attack any time is around me all the time. atleast thesedays im not having those chest pains - i dont want a long life any how but again i dont want sufferings i really have a very weak heart interms of moral.

well i have wished aga her birthday ever since she was 17 and today she gonna be 23 so her phone number and birthday are just something i dont forget even if i try to lol - so i gonna wish her birthday tonight too just waiting when its 5th in poland
her bf looks to be nice person he has big black eyes and aga always loved black eyes lol hes tall she liked tall guys lol why im drifting towards that topic again .....

I hope i continue posting things here as I really find it very nice when i read my past posts and reminds me of the situations i had been in - like a small flash back of mylife. will a smoke and it would be 12 in poland in almost 45 minutes